I had a lot on my mind about finishing up my mission and things I am still wanting to learn. I prayed to God to help me with a few last things.. and man have I felt the opposition.
My faith was definitely tested! The few things that I had prayed about to strengthen in my testimony, were all the things that faced me in opposition. But despite any negativity I felt, I kept praying and praying and praying.
We had our Temple Trip for the departing missionaries on Wednesday and it was incredible. I really poured out my heart to God to try to get some questions answered, and I felt so much peace. After the temple trip, I have had no stress or anxiety about going home. I can finally say I am excited. With that being said, I am still trying to work hard. Whenever I feel challenged or lazy I just ask myself, “What else would the Lord have me do in these next few days” and then try to put all the energy of my heart into whatever answers I receive. I just keep thinking about what I can to do bless my companion and the area I am serving in.
Like I said, since the temple trip, I have been much more at peace even when I face opposition. But I had a huge comforting experience to some of the opposition I was facing. In the Visitors’ Center we just came out with two new videos called, Days in Harmony and Day in the Eternities, which are both based on the restoration of the gospel in Joseph Smith’s time. In one of the videos, Oliver Cowdery, Joseph Smith’s scribe when translating the Book of Mormon, has some similar opposition to what I was feeling. He just needed a little reassurance to which the Lord gives them revelation and says, “Look unto me in every thought, doubt not, fear not” (Doctrine and Covenants 6:36). My heart shook and then I felt this overcoming peace again. I can’t even explain in. But what I can explain is that I felt the Holy Ghost reminding me that this is the truthfulness of the Gospel, and that I know it to be true. It is something I cannot deny and never will deny.
I love being a missionary. No opposition can ever take me down. After this experience, I shared it with another one of the sisters who I am really close with and she told me she was experiencing the exact same thing. There is always comfort to be found, and the Lord will always provide.
See you next week 😉